scared....SERIOUSLY???

6 months have passed..
i am now able to accept 100% that K is not the one for me (sebelum ni accept jugak, tapi selalu men'deny'kannya)
i dont feel sad anymore when i see 'things' that reminds me of K..
a lot of 'things' around me reminds me of K..
when i saw these 'things' last time, i would cry..how stupid..

my relatives often asked me 'don't you have any boyfriend?'
'malas nak cari' was always my reply. i have this EGO problem when people ask me about marriage.
why do i do that? maybe i don't want to show them that i'm desparate? maybe....

but deep down, i WANT one. i WANT to get married. i WANT to settle down. i WANT kids.

but i'm SCARED....

SCARED of being hurt....again...